Shouldn't everyone be happy with a 38 minute and 50 second PR for the Marathon?
My friend asked me right after the race if I was still happy about the race and the answer is “NO”.
It has been just over two weeks since the Best Damn Race Marathon where my time goal was to go sub 5. If you read my last post you can see I did not reach it and I am very upset about it. You can read it here.
Giving myself time to think about it I am starting to get over/deal with it. I am setting new goals to reach and getting ready to train for them. I am also taking it easy giving my body the appropriate time to recover. I am still not happy about it nor do I know if I will ever be happy about the outcome of the race. I am disappointed in myself.
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I wish I knew why I am so upset with missing my goal. Maybe its the fact I missed it by just over the and a half minutes. Maybe I feel I could have pushed harder at the end and not given up. It could also be the fact that I trained for a specific goal and did everything I could have done to reach it and I fell short. Maybe I am comparing myself to my friends I trained with and expected to do what they did?
I also think this was the first time I trained for a specific goal and did NOT hit the goal. When I was reflecting on this I couldn’t believe that was true. Maybe I set my goals too low but I often surprise myself because race day can be so tricky, especially for 26.2 miles.
When I made my last goals this is how I came up:
Wanted a sub 30 5k- and came out with 29:03
2:15 half and came in at 2:12 *This race was a month earlier than anticipated*
Olympic distance and first triathlon 3:45-4:00 and came in at 3:38 and surpassed my run goal!
15k -I wanted under 1:45 and was surprised to see 1:35:11 at the gate River Run with the bridges! This was actually a week before my half marathon PR!
I do see that 38 minutes faster is fabulous and I am thankful for that! Last years marathon was 5:55 when I did the NYC Marathon. I am so thankful for everyone who put up with me this training cycle. I am ready to set new goals and reach those in time :)
I also think it is OK to not be OK with a race result..What do you think?